‘I’ve been left unable to think or move’: Nick Cordero’s widow Amanda Kloots pens heartbreaking letter about loss after the actor’s death from COVID-19 complications
- Nick, 41, passed away on July 5 after fighting for his life for more than 90 days due to COVID-19 complications
- His grieving wife, 38, took to Instagram on Wednesday to detail her experience with loss
- In the emotional message, the fitness instructor said she’s started to process the ‘loss of my family’
- Amanda and Nick, whose Broadway credits include Rock of Ages and Waitress, tied the knot in 2017 and welcomed their son last June
Nick Cordero’s widow Amanda Kloots has written an emotional letter about loss following the actor’s tragic death from COVID-19 complications earlier this month.
The theatre star passed away aged 41 after spending more than 90 days in hospital fighting for his life, who is survived by his heartbroken wife, 38, and their 13-month-old son Elvis.
Amanda took to Instagram on Wednesday evening to share a throwback photo of the family-of-three as she detailed her experience with grief and admitted the tragic loss has left her ‘unable to think or move’.
Tragic: Nick Cordero’s widow Amanda Kloots has written an emotional letter about loss following the actor’s death (pictured together with son Elvis, 13 months)
The fitness instructor, who tied the knot to her late partner in 2017, penned: ‘Every day, as I process this loss more and more, I realize new things that are hitting me on a daily basis.
‘Today it was that I lost our family. I lost my husband. Elvis lost his father, but today I realized we lost our family.’
Sharing the challenges of moving forward, the online influencer explained: ‘We didn’t really even get to be a family. We won’t have those memories that I dreamed of since Elvis was born. This hit me hard.
‘It stung like a horrible bug bite actually. The pain of everything has recently begun to stop me in my tracks. I’ll be doing something and I freeze, unable to think or move. My gut aches, it actually aches deeper than I ever knew it could.’
Heartbreaking: The theatre star passed away from COVID-19 complications aged 41 after spending more than 90 days in hospital fighting for his life
‘I’ve been left unable to think or move’: The fitness instructor, 38, took to Instagram on Wednesday evening to detail her experience with grief
The mother-of-one revealed she decided to upload her message in a bid to help others going through similar struggles.
Amanda ended her post: ‘I am saying this tonight in hopes that if anyone else can relate, know that I’m here with you. If anyone else feels this pain, you are not alone. Grieving is a journey we all do differently.
‘Talking about it when I have the strength is helping me. I don’t always have the strength, sometimes I can’t talk at all. There are no answers. There is no right or wrong. I can only allow myself the time and the process and be honest with that.’
Nick, whose Broadway credits include Rock of Ages and Waitress, died on July 5 at the Cedars-Sinai Medical Center in Los Angeles.
Romance history: Amanda and Nick, whose Broadway credits include Rock of Ages and Waitress, tied the knot in 2017 and welcomed their son last June (pictured in August 2017)
The Canadian star was first admitted to the facility in late March after initially being diagnosed with pneumonia.
At the time, Amanda revealed her husband was in intensive care and was having a ‘hard time breathing’.
Days later, doctors confirmed Nick was suffering from coronavirus after being tested three times, testing negative on the first two occasions.
Lengthy battle: The Canadian star was first admitted to the facility in late March after initially being diagnosed with pneumonia
Amanda was unable to be at her husband’s side in the hospital due to coronavirus safety guidelines and visitor restrictions at the hospital.
Initially, Nick’s symptoms were intermittent. In an interview with Buzzfeed at the time, the entrepreneur said the thespian ‘could not get out of bed, so tired, no energy, that was really his only symptom.’
But his condition soon took a drastic turn for the worse, and shortly after being admitted to the hospital, Nick was placed on a ventilator by doctors.