Billie Piper has shed light on her teenage eating disorder and revealed her need to be ‘the best version of herself’ led to a ‘very active’ battle with her health.
The actress, 38, wrote a candid essay for ELLE UK, in which she revealed she once collapsed at the age of 18 after ‘days of Diet Cokes and Marlboro Lights’ exacerbated her eating disorder in 1996, as she admitted she needed ‘control’.
Speaking about her evolving mental health woes up to the current day, she penned: ‘This need to achieve and control and be the best version of myself morphed into an eating disorder, then later into what I can only describe as an addiction to work.’
Shock: Billie Piper has shed light on her teenage eating disorder and revealed her need to be ‘the best version of herself’ led to a ‘very active’ battle with her health (pictured in 2000)
Billie has been candid in the past about her battle with anorexia, including revealing in the past: ‘At one point, I managed five days without solid food’.
She has now revealed a life changing incident left her terrified when she had a ‘dramatic turn’ which saw her get taken to hospital by a man she later learned was Paul Solomons, who is now Kylie Minogue’s fiancé.
Explaining what happened, she wrote: ‘It was 2000 when I passed out in a Covent Garden club – “foaming at the mouth”, but I have no reason to believe that.
‘My PR rang through to my hospital bed to fill in some blanks – I’d been carried out of the club by a man, apparently. A hero or a pest? I wondered. It’s always hard to tell.
Reflective: The actress, 38, wrote a candid essay for ELLE UK , in which she revealed she once collapsed at the age of 18 after ‘days of Diet Cokes and Marlboro Lights’ exacerbated her eating disorder in 1996, as she admitted she needed ‘control’ (pictured in 1999)
Incident: Billie has been candid in the past about her battle with anorexia, including revealing in the past: ‘At one point, I managed five days without solid food’
‘(Later, I’d find out his name is Paul, like my dad. He’s Welsh, works at GQ and will, in time, become a dear friend, a blinding success and Kylie Minogue’s fiancé. Hero, not pest. Kylie knows.)’
Billie went on: ‘My “dramatic turn” – as I liked to call it – was a result of days of Diet Cokes and Marlboro Lights fuelling a very active eating disorder…
‘Cystitis that crept up my back and into my kidneys, a goblet of sweet white wine and a mind and body dissociation that I feared for the very first time.
‘Later, this need to achieve and control and be the best version of myself morphed into an eating disorder, then later into what I can only describe as an addiction to work.’
Awareness: Billie added her mental health has morphed over the years, and she has had to deal with anxiety and an ‘obsession’ with achieving more, but she can now work to improve it
Billie stipulated that being aware of her mental health struggles meant she could work on it: ‘Now being aware of that propensity means I can, to an extent, do something about it.’
The Doctor Who star went on: ‘Therapy does not change who you are. My inner workaholic is still there. So is that white noise at 3am.
‘Working on my mental health is about awareness. Being aware when I’m behaving in a certain way or being overly critical of myself or living for someone else.
Incident: Billie stipulated that being aware of her mental health struggles meant she could work on it: ‘Now being aware of that propensity means I can, to an extent, do something about it
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‘The change is awareness. I wish it could be more fantastical than that, but the reality is that it just isn’t.
‘All the therapy in the world, all that money spent, and I’m still drawn into behaviours I wish I’d been cured of – but I don’t think I ever will be and that’s OK.’
Billie, who has had a successful acting and singing career, also discussed the pressures that women face every day to make sure they ‘have it all’.
‘As I entered my thirties and the stakes of all my life decisions became so much greater, I felt restless under this new pressure,’ she claimed.
‘The pressure to not just do your job and live your life and keep your kids content – but instead to exist in hyper 4D.
‘Look, I understand these pressures affect men, too. I’m well aware of how this movement has left men scrabbling. But this very particular issue is, in my opinion, an acutely female epidemic.’
The March issue of ELLE UK is on sale from 04 February 2021.