Six months after losing her unborn son, Jamal, Emilee Hembrow has spoken about her devastating experience.
The 28-year-old influencer detailed the tragic loss in an emotional video posted to her YouTube channel on Tuesday.
Talking about her pregnancy, Emilee said she ‘woke up and felt really strange’, and noticed the baby ‘hadn’t kicked much’.
Heartbroken: Six months after losing her unborn son, Jamal, Emilee Hembrow has spoken about her devastating experience
But she said she ‘wasn’t worried at all’, and had a midwife appointment that same day, where she casually mentioned that the baby had been inactive.
Emilee said the midwife then had a look, and when she couldn’t find a heartbeat, she went to get another doctor.
‘She just grabbed my hand and said, “I’m really sorry, but I can’t find the heartbeat,”‘ she recounted, getting emotional.
Devastating: The 28-year-old influencer detailed the tragic loss in an emotional video posted to her YouTube channel on Tuesday
‘No matter how much you heal, every time I hear those words, it’s like a rush… The weirdest feeling. I just feel cold…
‘I just started to scream. I just said, “He has a heartbeat! Keep looking! Keep looking! This can’t be true! This can’t be true!”
‘I said, “This isn’t real! This isn’t real!” I was screaming. And my midwife grabbed me, and she was holding me, and she just said, “I’m so sorry.” She was crying also.’
Tragic: Talking about her pregnancy, Emilee said she ‘woke up and felt really strange’, and noticed the baby ‘hadn’t kicked much’
Six months later, Emilee said the loss of her third child still ‘feels so surreal’.
‘It was kind of like I left my body and I was just numb. People were talking to me in the room, the doctors and nurses, and I can’t even remember responding to anyone,’ she added.
She said she was induced for labour and then went home, describing the wait as ‘one of the hardest 24 hours of my life’.
‘She just grabbed my hand and said, “I’m really sorry, but I can’t find the heartbeat,”‘ she recounted, getting emotional
‘I have changed so much. I have grown so much. I look at the world completely different. I feel like I’ve honestly grown up, like, so much in the past six months,’ she continued.
‘And every second I have on this earth, I’m grateful for. Every second I have my kids, I’m grateful. Every second I have my husband, I’m grateful for.
‘I’m so grateful and I know how blessed I am. And I know that if I’m going to have another baby, it’s in God’s plans, and I know that Jamal is watching over me.’
‘I’m so grateful and I know how blessed I am. And I know that if I’m going to have another baby, it’s in God’s plans, and I know that Jamal is watching over me,’ she said
Emilee announced the devastating loss in a post on Instagram on June 21, sharing an illustration of a weeping woman kneeling in front of a baby angel.
‘In the name of God, the most merciful, the most compassionate. Truly to God we belong and truly to him we shall return. God doesn’t give a person a burden which they can’t not handle in this life,’ she wrote.
Emilee is also mum to daughter Aaliyah Snow, five, and son Gabriel Storm, two, with her husband.
Keeping mum: Emilee is also mum to daughter Aaliyah Snow, five, and son Gabriel Storm, two, with her husband