Amy Hart has revealed how she was convinced her former flame Curtis Pritchard ‘hated’ her after she left the Love Island villa following their romance.
The reality personality, 27, admitted during an appearance on the Thank You Next podcast that she worried the professional dancer would think she was a ‘bad person’, despite the fact he was the one who dumped her.
Amy also opened up about some of the topics she has dealt with in therapy since leaving the show, which include being afraid that people won’t like her.
Concerns: Amy Hart has revealed how she was convinced her former flame Curtis Pritchard ‘hated’ her after she left the Love Island villa following their romance
Detailing the first nerve wracking time she saw Curtis, Amy said: ‘Me and Curtis saw each other out clubbing. It was the first time we saw each other out and I had quite a few wines. And it was sort of, it was what I needed to hear because I was like, “I know you probably think I’m a really bad person.”
‘He was like “I don’t think you’re a bad person.” I was like, “oh okay, cool, thank you. That’s all I needed to hear.” Because I thought that he hated me.
‘So the fact that he was like, no, Amy I don’t think you’re a bad person at all. Like, it’s fine. I know you’re a good person and you’re a genuine person. I understand more now that we’ve come out, how genuine you actually were. I was like “oh, okay.”
Fears: The reality personality, 27, admitted during an appearance on the Thank You Next podcast that she worried the professional dancer would think she was a ‘bad person’, despite the fact he was the one who dumped her (pictured on Love Island summer 2019)
Amy revealed she has been exploring these feelings during therapy since leaving the villa, as she heartbreakingly admitted she feels ‘ugly’ and a ‘failure’.
She said: ‘Basically I found out through doing CBT that my core beliefs are that I am unlikeable, that I am not good enough. I’m a failure and I’m ugly. So that’s why and I’ve lived my whole life with those at the back of my head.
‘I didn’t know they were there. But everything, so stuff like my therapist would say, “have you had any anxiety this week?” And I’d say, “Oh, I did, but there was a reason for it, so it’s fine.”
Dealing with it: Amy also opened up about some of the topics she has dealt with in therapy since leaving the show, which include being afraid that people won’t like her
Detailing the first nerve wracking time she saw Curtis, Amy said: ‘Me and Curtis saw each other out clubbing. It was the first time we saw each other out and I had quite a few wines’
And she’d say, “OK, so what was the reason?” I’m like, “well my make up artist cancelled and I was worried I couldn’t get another one.” She said “But what would happen if you didn’t have a make up artist?”
‘I said well I’ll have to do it myself. “And what would happen then?” I was like, “well wouldn’t look as good.” And she’s like “Okay and if you didn’t look as good?” I was like “then people would say that I looked bad and people wouldn’t want to be my friend.”
‘And she’s like “everything goes, I promise you, everything in your life goes back to those four things. So we need to get rid of these of these 4 things”.
She recalled: ‘He was like “I don’t think you’re a bad person.” I was like, “oh okay, cool, thank you. That’s all I needed to hear.” Because I thought that he hated me’
Amy also discussed how anxiety left her unable to enjoy her time after leaving the show, as people would constantly tell her that her new life ‘wouldn’t last’.
She explained: ‘Everyone said to me, from literally the day I got home, “well yeah, make the most of it because like it’ll be over soon, yeah you gotta really milk it. Cos you’ve only got a year ,”and they said that really gleefully.
‘They’re like “yeah because obviously it’s not gonna last forever, is it? So… you know you gotta make the most of it. Amy, are you making the most of it though because, you know, are you actually earning money?”
‘But yes, people are very gleefully like “oh it, it won’t last.” I just think so then I spent the first six months of my sort of post Love Island career worrying about when it was going to be over. And I didn’t enjoy anything.’