YouTube star Brittani Boren Leach has revealed that she and her husband Jeff are expecting a baby again, after tragically losing their three-month-old son Crew at Christmas.
In an emotional Instagram post Tuesday, the Texas mom, 29, revealed that they discovered the happy news just as they moved into a new home amid the coronavirus pandemic.
“We cried tears of joy and happiness, tears of sadness, tears of nervousness, and tears of hope,” Leach wrote, alongside a picture of the pair holding a baby scan. “God has sent us the biggest blessing in the midst of many difficult trials and we are so thankful.”
In an emotional Instagram post Tuesday, the Texas mom, 29, revealed that they discovered the happy news just as they moved into a new home amid the coronavirus pandemic.
Mentioning their late son, Leach added: “We are so excited to meet this little heaven-sent blessing that big brother Crew has picked out just for us.”
Leach had previously admitted her struggles in the aftermath of her son’s death, after she was blasted by critics for posting images of his final days before his organs were donated.
In a video posted to YouTube in January this year, Leach and her husband addressed their critics, saying that the negative remarks ‘do not matter’.
‘However, they have made it more difficult for me to grieve,’ she said.
Journey: YouTube star Brittani Boren Leach and her husband Jeff had documented their grief the over the loss of their son Crew
Tough: In January this year, Leach, 29, said ‘the negative remarks do not matter. However, they have made it more difficult for me to grieve,’
The video was posted a month after Crew was found not breathing at a relative’s house on Christmas day.
The child was eventually resuscitated, but ended up brain dead, leaving the couple with the difficult choice of turning off his life support and donating his organs.
Leach, who has three other sons and a stepdaughter with her husband, shared a series of heartbreaking images alongside her tiny son while in the hospital.
Precious: A picture of Leach’s son Crew before he became ill
During the process, she posted images on Instagram of the baby’s final days, which they drew the criticism online.
Leach kept her followers up to date as she ended up burying Crew in a gown made from her wedding dress.
‘Oh how I wish this picture was taken today, I would give anything just to hold him this close again,’ Leach wrote in the caption of a sweet photo that shows her holding the child.
Leach and her husband Jeff with their son Crew in his final moments, from an image posted on social media
‘Those of you who were following me before and ‘knew’ Crew, knew he lived in this wrap. It was his favorite place to be,’ she said.
She told fans the family had decided to donate his organs, adding: ‘The pain is unbearable. I keep thinking that I will wake up from this nightmare, but I don’t.’
Leach said: ‘We are living a nightmare, and I’m dying inside. This can’t be real.’
But she also added: ‘Please keep in mind that we can see your comments, questions and conversations with one another. Put yourself in our shoes (which is impossible to do) and ask yourself if you’d want to read what you’re about to write or say.’
Leach posted images on Instagram of her baby’s final days, which she and her husband were criticized for online. ‘It only felt natural for me to post on Instagram and I would have people asking for updates,’ Leach explains in a new video post which cannot receive comments